Senses Fail Angela Baker and My Obsession With Fire

I wont forget the day that
that i came to
and i started thinking that theres more
than just perfect prom queens and silver spoons

and all i ever wanted
was someone
to knock me back to
the bliss of ignorance
cause i feel like running head first into traffic

and so I'm here to say
that thoughts in bed with pain

i wont forget the day that
that i found god
in a kitchen knife and on my arm
so pain the pale white floor with
with my red life

and tell me that this pain is
the pain you love
as i swallow the pills happiness
and you watch me fall like
new york in an earthquake

and so im here to say
that thoughts in bed with pain

i stand outside my pretty house
i light a match to start the fire
i called the cops to let em know
its 22 walthery ave

i thought i wanted this

im here to say
i said i wanted some more attention
i thought i wanted a story ending

i think the truth is im scared
i think that im just scared to live
i think that the truth is
im everything that i hate