Plan B Everyday
Every morning when I wake.
Every morning when I wake,
This is my life everyday.
This is my life everyday.
I wake up in the morning
Notice something ain't right,
'Cause although the Sun is shining, there is no light.
I open up my curtains
Wipe the sleep from my eyes, to tired to realise I’ve lost my sight.
Blinded by my ignorance I prepare my self for the day,
Thinking this sinking feeling will go away.
As I set off on my track the little voice in my head says, "Turn back." But when I want to turn back it's too late.
Darkness surrounds me
Drowning me in sorrow,
'Cause I know today will be no different from tomorrow.
Hope is quickly fading, soon I’ll be too far gone for saving, my soul will go and leave my body hollow.
And still in the face of adversity I search for an inner strength,
Try and stand firm with both fists clenched.
But I can't find my heart, it's like the fucking thing's deserted me,
It used to be there - this makes no sense.
So I pray to a God that I’m not even sure if I believe in.
To help me in my hour of need and
Keep me breathing.
I pray to this Dod that created a place called Eden - a paradise to put Adam and Eve in
But I don’t think he hears me speaking.
I’m starting to weaken,
Now I’m reaching for what’s fake:
Poisoning my body to escape.
Suddenly I’m overwhelmed with optimism,
My shoulders no longer feel the weight.
Yeah life feels great
But it's fake.
Every morning when I wake.
Every morning when I wake,
This is my life everyday.
This is my life everyday.
It's fake 'cause I know the smile on my face is only there
'cause I’m too intoxicated to care,
That inside my soul I can't find no hope, just a gaping hole where it used to be there,
An unmendable tear
That, when I’m sober, hurts more than I can bare.
It just ain't fair.
And soon I’ll be back in normality,
When the poison wears off and my whole body's aching from the pain of reality,
The pain of reality starts to grab at me.
Love is a fallacy and I’m staring straight at death as it tries take another stab at me.
I’m down on my knees
And I’m begging
Someone hear me please answer my questions.
Why is my life just one big deep depression? Is this God's way of teaching me a lesson?
Forgive me Father, for I have sinned,
This is my confession:
I do bad things and I don’t know why I do them.
I try to do good deeds but people see right through them.
I can't get close to no-one, 'cause they won't let me.
How can I feel like a man
If they don’t respect me?
Is that my heart
I feel starting to sink?
As the more I talk
I’m starting to think
That maybe I feel this way because of the mistakes I’ve made and it ain't got shit to do with no-one else,
I can only blame myself.
It's me who’s bad for my health
And only I can rectify what's wrong in my life if only I tried a little bit harder.
It all comes down to a choice what would I rather:
Stay how I am and watch the days get darker
Or forgive myself,
Get on with my life,
And not look back after?
Every morning when I wake.
Every morning when I wake,
This is my life everyday.
This is my life everyday.
